out dated

its been quite a long time since i post an entry in this blog. it just like my passion and commitment for this blog is diminishing as time passes by. stalking to other's blog makes me wonder..."oh,kuno gile blog aku". hahahahah.... so peeps..help me with this one. where did u guys get those cool layouts for ur blogs? mcm cool gile....nak jugakkkkkk......hehehehehe...

~chow~

p/s: winter break almost over. probably wont see me regularly these coming 3 months. kene struggle gile bangang wei. seriously!

positive

dont u guys think sometimes it feels hard to be positive?

even though u try to be one, but the question is...until when? for how long can u be positive?

positive thoughts..positive signal..positive mind....bla..bla..blaa...

sometimes,it feels like i am lying to myself...for being positive...

by planting the thoughts of things that you wanted..or how things should be...

wake up!this is the real world...not everything will goes with your plan...

not everything that you dream of will be granted..

*damn u evil!stop messing with my thoughts!*

i guess trying to be positive doesnt harm anyway..

if it makes you feels better...why bother?

just keep on being positive!

good luck people! *peace*

keyword: smile.....:)

p/s: currently watching hotaru no hikari 2. owh...i luv this drama. i wish i can be like amemiya hotaru.

kembali bernafas and bernyawa

i'm back.
with a new life and a new me!
a simple update for now..
i am fine.
*wink*

Maher Zain - Insha Allah | ماهر زين - ان شاء الله

Lyrics: Insha ALLAH

Every time you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost and
That you're so alone
All you see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can’t see which way to go
Don’t despair n' never loose hope
Cos' Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3

Insha Allah you’ll find your way

Insha Allah x3

Every time you can make one more mistake
You feel you can’t repent
And that it's why too late
You’re so confused,
Wrong decisions you have made
Hunt your mind and your heart is full of shame
Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cos' Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3

Insha Allah you’ll find your way

Insha Allah x3

Insha Allah you’ll find your way
Turn to Allah
He’s never far away
Put your trust in Him Raise your hands and pray Oh
Ya Allah
Guide my steps don’t let me go astray
You’re the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way x2

Insha Allah x3

Insha Allah we’ll find our way

15 july 2010

saban malam aku berfikir.
berfikir akan kesan akibat keputusan yang bakal ku ambil.
perasaan takut yang menghimpit..
menjadikan aku gentar memberi kata putus.
aku tak tahu apa yang akan berlaku pada hari esok atau lusa
yang aku tahu..
aku tak mahu menyesal
melepaskan apa yang di depan mata
dan menyerah kalah sebelum aku gigih mencuba
akanku pelihara ia sebaiknya.
insyaallah....

p/s: wah..melampau jiwang.kompem kene bahan nih.hahahahahaa...

nota buat kamu: sy dh tunaikan janji sy. imy!! :)

Thank God I Found You With Lyrics

Thank God I Found You by Mariah Carey , 98°, and Joe

Lyrics:

[MC:]
Ahhhm
Mhhh

[98 Degrees & Joe:]
Oh yeah

[MC:]
I would give up everything
Before I'd seperate myself from you
After so much suffering
I finally found unvarnished truth
I was all by myself for the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heartache would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life

[all:]
Thank God I found you
(Yeah yeah)
I was lost without you
(I was lost)
My every wish and every dream
(Mmmmh)
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with graditude
'Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you

[MC & Joe:]
Mmmh
Oh yeah
Whoaaaaaa
Oh yeah

[98 Degrees & Joe:]
I will give you everything (everything)
There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do (oh no)
To ensure your happiness
I'll cherish every part of you
'Cause without you beside me I can't survive
Don't wanna try
(I don't wanna try)
If you keeping me warm each and every night
I'll be allright (be allright)
'Cause I need you in my life

[all:]
Ooooh
Thank God I found you
(I'm thanking you)
I was lost without you
(So lost without you)
My every wish and every dream
(Every wish, every dream)
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight (brought the sunlight)
Completed my whole life (completed)
I'm overwhelmed with graditude (overwhelmed with graditude)
('Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you)
And I'm so thankful I found you

[MC & Joe:]
Oooooh
(See)
See I was so desolate before you came to me
Looking back (looking back)
I guess it shows that we were destined
To shine over the rain to appreciate
The gift of what we have
And I'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel
This way
(This way)

[all:]
Thank God I found you
(Yeah yeah)
I was lost without you
(Lost without you baby)
My every wish and every dream
(And every dream)
Somehow became reality
Oooooooh
When you brought the sunlight
(Brought the light)
Completed my whole life
(My whole life)
I'm overwhelmed with graditude
See baby I'm so thankful I found you
Oooooooh
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
I'm overwhelmed with graditude
(So overwhelmed)
My baby I'm so thankful I found
You
You
I'm overwhelmed with graditude
My baby I'm so thankful I found
(I found you)

You

bercinta

tajuk post haruslah kontroversi. ya! harus ya rakan2!
salam muhibbah dan salam perantauan...(erk!motif??) setelah berabad dan berkurun lamanya hidup dalam keadaan huru hara dan tidak tentu hala...akhirnya keadaan sudah kembali normal dan kembali aman. (banyak maksud tuh) tatkala semua sedang riuh dengan Piala Dunia 2010...aku berjaga saban malam demi mencari sesuap nasi. (ok!cut da crap!!)
minggu lepas..selesai sudah kerja part time ku sebagai stock taker. sepanjang sebulan bekerja..x dpt ku nafikan. macam2 pengalaman yang ak dapat. tapi..nak dipendekkan cerita...kerja selama sebulan dgn AJIS(All Japanese Inventory Service) mmg best! kenal kawan2 baru...dpt berjalan smpai ke JB. dok hotel best! mmg syok!however, i never thought that it will end this way..i mean..not the way it shud b. (sape yg faham..faham la ye) .but..overall..even it didnt end in a gud way...im glad..sebab insiden itu unite all of us and we start to learn what friends is all about. (not to mention...love also. (ditujukan pd my cousin..diba)hehehe...

ok!dah banyak melalut..kembali pada tajuk asal. BERCINTA. what is love anyway? yang aku taw..cinta pd tuhan yang satu...cinta pd ibu bapa..pada keluarga. itu sahaja. cinta antara lelaki dan perempuan?? that is the most complicated one. maybe because i had never experienced it. aku masih ingat...zaman persekolahan. cinta antara lelaki dan perempuan..sangat2 di larang. kononnya sebab buat kita alpa..leka..n da most important thing...terdorong ke arah maksiat. paling best..cikgu2 kat sekolah nak suruh student break up. dorang menggunakan cara halus. ada 1 hari..diperuntukkan untuk tangkap gmba mereka yang berpasang pasangan. kononnya nak dipos ke ibu bapa.biar mereka takot. yela..kalau mak bapak taw...for sure la kene marah.kan? tp,ak selamat. sebab xde bf..(huhu). tapi..ak kagum dgn ckgu yg mncul dgn idea tu.sbb mmg ramai jugak yang clash.takot parents taw. memang sangat menggelabah para pasangan ketika itu. except ko kan zarifah! rilek muke bahagia tangkap gmba ngan ahyamn.cipan tol ko!hahaha...

aku masih ingat..ibu selalu pesan.."jangan nak bercinta cinta lagi!" aku pegang kata2 itu!memang!ak xde pon nak kapel2 ke pe..(pdhal xde org nak pon.hahaha). blaja je...kalau bercinta..nanti ibu marah! nanti pointer x dapat 3..cane?? so..cinta2 ni..tolak tepi! (admire2 2 mstila ade...tp,xde r smpai nk bercinta) so..nak dijadikan cerita..ak meneruskan kehidupan tanpa menghiraukan pasal cinta. until one day my mum ask.."kakak xde bf ke??" dalam ati ak kata.."aik??bukan dulu x bagi de bf ke??" katanye..dulu sekolah lagi. memang la...skang ni dh besa. umo dah lebih 20.kalau xde sesape..risau jugak. aku pening suda...cane ni??memang kene de bf ke??aku igt still x boley lg... aku pun bengong...nape dulu x tanye...start umo bape ley de bf.haiyoo...kan skang dah terkontang kanting nk carik. itulah dy ibuku..dulu menghalang gila2! skang sbok dok tanya2!! apakah yang kau mahu wahai bonda??

ramai yang selalu tanya..kenapa aku xde bf? dan ramai jugak yg cop..ak choosy. (memilih) p/s:aku bukan lesbo ye kerol! (sial kau!). jawapannya..senang je. im not a man chaser...im a love chaser. so, aku kene betol2 yakin sebelum terima cinta seseorang. kalau setakat nak dapat title 'ada bf'..sumpah senang! (i used to..hehehe..) tp,nak betul2 sayangkan org 2..sumpah susah! sbb 2 ak plek..nape de org ley tukar2 bf. senangnya perasaan die berubah arah. senang kata..mcm cinta 2 adalah 1 objek yang boleh dipindah dan dialihkan sesuka hati.apakah??

so,kepada si dia yang namanya dirahsiakan. mekacih sbb mncul dlm idup sy. sekarang ini..kmu adalah org yg sgt penting dalam idup sy. without u...i feel sumtin is missing. (heheh..malu2..). tapi,smpai skang..sy masih ragu2.."is it ok for me to start diz luv n start loving u?" . i still dunno the answer...i know im being selfish. but,i hope u can wait for me. i promise it wouldn't be long. promise! :D

guys...im in love..:)

hihihi....o yes..diz ain't a lie.
currently im in luv!
deeply fall in luv with him..my MR.X!
i always wanted him so badly..
thanx god..we'r really belong to each other..
i will never ignoring u mr.x...*wink*

p/s: for now..we dun hv any pic together. later k.hehehehe....

wedding oh wedding..

salam semua...
feels like forever blog ini x diupdate. finally..ada topik untuk dikongsi bersama. i know..skang ni musim holiday.especially to college & univ students. hepi hols guys!!! myb 4 certain ppl..holiday means everything 2 them. yela..dr awal sem dah plan utk cuti sem nk watpe. unfortunately..im nt included..holiday means lying on bed 24/7..(katil x kemas smpai bermnggu mnggu), ngadap lappy n on9 almost every single minutes..dan juga..watching 4 or 5 movies per day. yup!hate 2 tells u dat..but,dats my routine.sangat bosan!
but diz year..seems like a little bit diff. cuti kali ini..i'll b working, together with my cousin. spend time with my fwens kat umah sewa..n we'r planning 4 a trip 2 a'famosa! (insyaallah bln 7 ni). kami juga plan utk ke jhor..spend our weekend kt umah my uncle..tp,xtaw g jd ke x. well..at least..ada jugak something exciting waiting 4 me diz hols aite?? one more thing..diz becoming june..my weekend almost full with wedding invitations!!
ok...act,tujuan utama post ini nak menghebahkan kepada kawn sekalian..especially to all BIOMED'S STUDENT bout our friend's wedding. noor haura samsudin @ agha. kinda exciting kot sbb she's da 1st 1 in our batch getting married! congrats agha!!!

mohd firdaus & noor haura

tarikh: 6jun2010 (23jamadilakhir1431H)
bertempat di: no 32, jln kelapa sawit, taman soga, 83000 batu pahat, johor.

excited..excited jugak..but till now i'm still confuse nk pg wedding ane 1. coz on da same day..my ex-homeroom teacher's wedding..ckg azrin yahya (homeroom wawasan5, 2005. mrsm serting) nak pg 2,2..quite impossible.1 kat jhor..1 kat perak.utk memudahkan pikiran sy yg sdg kusut ni...sy pn terpaksa buat camni..utk decide nk pegi yg mane.

kenapa saya kene pegi wedding agha:

• 1st dak biomed getting married!sgt excited kot!
• pegi ramai2..mst best! :)
• ley tumpang nek kete jep.transportation problem..solved!! (peace!)
• agha antra mmbe kamceng saya dalm biomed! *wink*
• saya x penah sampai batu pahat pon...nak jugak pegi..hehehe..
  

kenapa saya kene pergi wedding ckg azrin:

• we'r her 1st homeroom student!
• sgt lame x jmpe ckg..since after amek result spm.OMG!! sgt lame!
• dpt gather dak2 homeroom dulu yang dah lame x jumpe. (salu jumpe pie je)
• kat kamunting je..xde r jauh sgt.hehehehe...
• mcm susah nk jumpe ckg lagi lpas ni..(ckg mengajar kat tawau)
• kalau saya x pg..dak2 homeroom lain xnk pg..(coz im da organizer.org penting ni.hehehe)
• badak sponsor transport..tp,kne g seri iskandar nek bas. :(

so...sy still tgh pkirkan nk pegi wedding yang mane.huhuhuhu...kawan2..tlg saya...wuuuuu~~~
sekian saja dari sy kali ini. c ya!!

p/s: dah dapat kad jemputan dari ckg azrin..sgt excited bukak..nk bace. ttbe ternampak.." ....menjemput ZARF & PASANGAN ke majlis....." Pasangan?? erk..ckg! saya xde pasangan lagi!! hahahaha...

post baru!

oh..blog sudah bersawang.
maaf encik blog..
tiada yang menarik untuk dikongsi..
maka..membuatkanku malas untuk update kamu wahai encik blog..
maafkan aku sekali lagi...*sob.sob.sob*

post untuk 18 tahun ke atas sahaja!

salam everyone!!
maaf atas kebisuanku di kala ini.
kesibukan melanda diri hinggakan aku lupa sejenak kewujudan blog nih.
*poyos*
as u all know...since im working rite now..so,im a bit bz.
mlm keje..siang g claz.
wow! gigih bukan?hahaha..

p/s: x dpt tekel en.engineer. dpt en.security..tp ensem siot! lyan~~ wat scandal...hahaha

erm...aku tergerak utk menulis kali ni..
sebab de 1 mnde yg wat ak terpikir pikir.
but..1st of all...
mungkin entry kali ni agk x snonoh..so,under age is not allowed here ok!
hhahahaa...

ok!
there's diz 1 person..mmbe tmpt keje..
HE..claims himself as SHE!
*means..nyah ok!*
lets call him/her W.
mula2 knl..aku igtkn dy ni juz lelaki lmbut la..mksdnye.appearnce je lmbt..tp jiwa still laki.
tp,bile lame2 knl..ak rase si W ni agk parah jugak la..
salu cter kt aku..psl prtndingan ratu cntik yg dy msuk laa..
*prtndingn 2 utk nyah*
dress2 yg dy beli la..
BF n scandal2 dy la..
*beb!ak pon xde BF kot!*
care dy cter..mcm x slh lgsg pe dy wat..
tp xpe...ak sronok dgr cter dy. sbb mnde ni sume pnglmn. mcm2 ak ley taw. sumtimes..da way they look at things a bit diff cmpred 2 normal ppl.
bout sume scndal2 dy 2..ak mmg taw.n ak knl sume scndal2 dy..
da best part is..most of them sume dh kawen taw! n how come ley de feeling wif another GUY! de 1 of his scandal..bru je kawen. tp, dok men ngan si W ni jugak.
si W ni pon..ak xtaw ilmu pe dy pkai..smpai ley kikis duit scandal2 dy. ak sgt plek ok!
nape sume laki2 2 cam sng2 hulur duit kat si W ni.
so..im start 2 bother.. nape dorg beria sgt lyn si W ni. smpai hlur duit beratus ratus.
SAYANG??? xkan kot! laz2..ak dpt 1 theory..
si W ni dpt duit..tp,si scandal2 ni sume dpt tettttttttttttt.......
*sila fhm mksd sy*

p/s:ak dh kte entry kali ni x snonoh ok!jgn kte ak x warn!*

ewww...sgt geli kn??? 1 lg ak trpk..
kesian gile kt bini2 mamat2 2..
kalau la dorg taw laki dorg de scndl ngan nyah..
pehh..x trase trcbr ke??
sbb pompuan tulen x mmpu puaskan nafsu laki dorg sndri.
*gile x snonoh post ak nih*
klau cmni..jtuh la mrtbt pompuan! kalah dgn nyah!
pe kes??

tp,sume mnde2 ni..bg ak 1 g pngjrn.
MAN CANNOT B TRUSTED!
mmg xley pakai laki2 ni..mybe bkn sume.tp,mostly.
so..pompuan2 sume..pasni kite jgn loyal sgt k! crik scndal bbyk..
hahaha...

p/s: scandal dlm scndal..

en.security yg de scndal ngan ak act scandal si W gak. well..ak lyn je. kate scndal kan..
besides..si W xley nk mrh kt aku..since dy sdri ckp kt aku laki2 ni sume xley caye..dy wat kt org ley kn?well...payback tyme!plus..diz girl juz wanna have fun! *dun worry guys..ak x wat mnde x snonoh ok! aku still waras.huuuu*

nota tambahan:
info yg ak dpt psl nyah..
1. dorg ni sgt oversensitif. means..dorg cpt sgt prasan n igt sume guy usha dorg.
2. they can be extreme sumtimes. laki2 yg men ngan nyah..b careful ok! once korg men2 kn dorg..mmg nahas la idop korg. *aku de story behind it*
3. they really a gud fwen..sgt sronok n best kwn ngan dorg.as long korg x jd backstabber la. ak ni pn 2gu tyme je..hahaha..

ttbe ak teringat si W ni pnh ckp kt ak. "zaf..W ni kn playGIRL....". erk??apakah???

tahun baru..azam pun kene baru eh?

tahun baru sudaaa.....
aku x phm sbnrnye nape sume org sbok2 sgt clbrte taun baru ni..
wish org sane cni...
sronok sgt ea msuk taun baru??
pastu...dh jadi cam trend lak...
tiap kali taun baru..kne de azam baru..
harus la begitu??harus?
mmg aku x paham..
tp, skdr utk berkongsi kegembiraan dgn sume org
yg dok sronok smbut tahun baru...
aku memikirkan jugak pe azam ak taun ni...
pikir..pikir..pikir...
^
^
^
^
pikir..pikir..pikir...
^
^
^
*sigh*
maaf semua...
smpai skang aku x dpt pikir..
hahahahaha.....
sbb dlm otak ak skang ni pk 1 mnde je...
duit..duit..duit...
adkh itu brmkne..azam ak brkaitan dgn duit??
oohhh.....rasenye..itulah dy azam aku.
(mcm haram aku merepek)

isnin ni...ak stat keje tmpt baru..
ak dh x keje kt otel...
de arak..alcohol sume 2..
ak cube ikot nasihat sorg kwn..
pk cane nk crik rezeki halal...*thnx 2 en.farid*
hahaha...
(jgn slh phm..ak kje otel bkn jual bdn okehh!!)
isnin ni ak kje ngan catering Azam Pandan..
pnh dgr??
ala...femes jugak r..artis2 pnye wedding salu gne catering ni..
asyraff sinclair kawen pn gne catering ni...
MHI pnye breakfast pn Azam Pandan yg sponsor..
ok..enuff bout Azam Pandan.
CEO Azam Pandan bg job kt kitrg...
kt kafeteria TOYOTA UMW kt s.alam...
tp,keje shif malam dowh...
10mlm-7pg..
wah!nsb bek claz x byk nex sem...
mau menggigil otak ak nnt...
kitrg dtmptkn kt TOYOTA Assembly...(kt c2 de byk bhgian..assembly la..advantech la..dsb)
n kitrg dfhmkn oleh kak dayang,(akak manager@bkal menantu en.CEO)..
bliau agk risau utk ltak kitrg kt sne..sbb kt c2 rmai laki..
means..worker2 kt assembly trdiri dpd technician n engineers..
perlukah aku risau??
x perlu ah...duit..duit..duit...

p/s:nk tmbah azam ley x?? mau tekel encik engineer!! muahahahaha.....